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satisfaction

2008-08-04T23:32:00.000-07:00

hello! i've been hearing lots of rumors lately but i don't let them stay in my system. i have great family, great friends, great companion (robin haha), and great school grades. what more can i ask for? i love you, god. you really know how to make me happy. see yah! :-D

RANT

2008-07-14T05:50:00.000-07:00

SHE IS AS EVIL AS YOU!

Finally

2008-07-10T03:34:00.003-07:00

We talked about closure, letting go, and giving up.

We talked about things we're not supposed to talk about.

We talked about closure.

We talked about letting go.

We talked about giving up.

We talked about not seeing each other.

Not after class, not after mass.

We talked about on living our life as our own.

We talked about goodbye.

That bastard

2008-07-08T04:27:00.000-07:00

If you feel like leaving, well.. I'm not gonna make you stay so now you can fuck off. =)

[edit] It is really really really hard to trust someone you don't even know from the start. Okay, it is like jumping on a plane.. would you wear a life-parachute or not?[/edit]

Exchange

2008-07-08T03:56:00.000-07:00

Dad surprised my by buying 3 expensive bags earlier.

Mommy: "May surprise papa mo." while holding a big Lacoste paper bag.
Me: "Where?"
Mommy: "Here" pointing the bag using her lips.
Me: "Why? Bat ako binilhan?"
Mommy: "Para bumaet ka daw."

K. What the fuck? Appreciate ko he gave bags for me because I really need one pero for exchange na maging okay kami? Please, dad. I'm not materialistic... but thanks.

Back!

2008-07-07T04:16:00.001-07:00

Hi, sorry! I missed blogging. :)

I miss drinking, going out with my fucked up friends, and solving Math problems. School's okay. We had a Meeting de avance earlier which lasted for 1 and half hour. Boring. I was with Mai anyway and Karla was with her blockmates. We were searching for Mikee but we couldn't see her so we seated right beside this pretty girl. Hehe. I told Mai to look at her and asked if she's pretty and she said talent daw yun ng Abs Cbn. Wasn't sure, though. But she really looks pretty. :)

After school, we kinda had an argue where to go because it's really too early pa. 10am lang ata yun. : We decided to have breakfast in McDo since sobrang aga nung assembly and we haven't had our meals. After nun, Sabel had to go to Robinson's Metro East to talk about stuff with Jp and I asked Mai and Karla if we could go to UST to visit Dide and Reanne. :) Sobrang init tapos narealize namin, we were all wearing black shirts so ang init talaga sa katawan. : Lrt Katipunan to Legarda then Dide texted, mag-pedicab kami 'til P. Noval. May manong dun sa loob ng lrt super cool ng shades n'ya. Haha, sobrang natuwa kaya ako. :)) Yung shades na pang guys na nagmo-motor yung colorful tapos you can see yourself dun sa glasses. Cool, noh? Anyway, yun nga. May cute guy pa sa loob nun pero he looks gay. HAHA! Whatev. When we reached P. Noval, tatawid kami sobrang nag-panic kami kasi baka bawal tumawid doon tapos pakantahin kami ng Lupang Hinirang. HAHA! :)) May kamukha pa si Dide na bagong labas dun sa UST so we thought it was her. Anywayyyyyyy, sobrang nakakapagod yung journey namin sa UST. Umuulan sa main building, sa Beato, hindi. =)) Tapos umuwi na kami ng lunch, sobrang init at sobrang aga pa pala! I reached home at 2pm.

Anyway, gusto ko magtransfer sa UST next school year. I'm thinking if I could switch to Advertising. :)

Oo na.

2008-05-31T21:16:00.000-07:00

I've been unfair all this time. Eh ikaw ba, naging fair ka ba?

Pinromise ko kaya sa sarili ko di na ko maghahanap ng iba. Na-stuck na nga ako sa'yo eh. Pero ano? Wala pa din.

Saan ka?

2008-05-22T03:51:00.000-07:00

Ang tamang bagay at tamang panahon wala na ring saysay kapag wala na yung tamang tao. Ang tao pwedeng mag-adjust, pero ang bagay at panahon, hindi.

Rant of a daughter

2008-05-21T02:09:00.000-07:00

i hated my dad because

1. he is the only guy who makes me cry too much
2. he forces me to do things he knows i cannot do
3. he doesn`t support me on whatever things i want to do
4. i know i`m stupid, he doesn`t need to repeat it all over again
5. he hurts me physically
6. and shouts at me
7. i always break down, and i don`t like the feeling
8. he shouts at me often
9. like now he`s shouting
10. he always tells me i`m lazy
11. and whenever i go out, he tells me to stop going out with my friends
12. he asks me to go out when i`m stucked here at home, and infront of my computer
13. i`d tell him "you don`t want to, right?"
14. and then he shouts at me again
15. what an irony
16. okay, he tells me i suck at doing this and that
17. he chooses my friends
18. and i only have like 2 to 3 friends left
19. God damn it, i don`t know what i`m going to do with him
20. i think he hates me, prolly he`s afraid i might know the truth
21. but if he doesn`t, then why is he hurting me this much?
22. he hurts me emotionally
23. and i hate it

i love him because
1. he is my father

Bitter? Not

2008-05-20T03:08:00.000-07:00

Fall in love? That's a hard thing to do. I would rather have a beer. It makes you warm inside, much like love. Then when you have had too much to drink, you fall hard. Same thing with love. But when you have too much love and get hurt, it takes so long to recover. While with beer, just a sleep and it's over. So do I still wanna fall in love? I guess not.

Starting line

2008-05-17T21:40:00.000-07:00

What's in college?

When you are 16 and in college, people expect things of you. You are expected to be better, smarter, faster. You are expected to surpass your parents, to be greater than your best friend. Your life is planned out before it is even begun.

P.S. I haven't heard things lately from him.
P.P.S. Oh, I had but not those things I expect to hear.

I took a deep breath

2008-05-16T02:14:00.000-07:00

What about this week?

Monday: Went out with him. I like him.
Tuesday: I went to my new university and got my college uniform. Woah cool. I liked it.
Wedneseday: I was excited because I'm going to see him again tomorrow. =)
Thursday: Ok, was disappointed since he's not feeling well and things you don't really need to know. Good thing a friend of mine went up with me and say things would be alright.
Friday: Stucked. Dad and I fought. Outdoor shoots were cancelled because of heavy rain. Fuck fuck fuck.

Last shot

2008-05-14T19:44:00.001-07:00

Wooo~

I said to myself he's gonna be my last shot. But hey, what happened?

Ambush Too (2) by Dense Modesto

2008-05-02T19:12:00.000-07:00

Ambush D: Jumping Pixels

Ambush E: Pixel Moments

Photographer: Dense Modesto
Stylist: Rj: Vampire Prince
Models: Krisha, Ed, Bon, and Louie
Location: Marikina City

Ambush Too by Dense Modesto

2008-05-01T19:02:00.000-07:00

Ambush A: Living On Trees

Ambush B: Shooting Heads

Ambush C: Amongst Children

Photographer: Dense Modesto
Models: Krisha, Ed, Louie, and Bon
Location: Marikina City

Parents

2008-04-26T20:30:00.000-07:00

I missed a lot of things. :-

1. EP launch of Box of Mocha last night in Freedom Bar.
2. Photoshoot in UP Diliman this afternoon.

I hate it. My parents' aren't supportive on whatever things I want to do. They want me to do what they want and that's unfair. Shitty.

Anyway, Subic photos are now posted here and I'm getting addicted to Uffie. Thanks Jesus, you have Uffie. :-

Hair and Career

2008-04-22T21:19:00.000-07:00

Im feeling so frustrated. I dyed my hair red yet it is still black. :- I wanna go blonde.

Rj talked to me last night. He wanted me to go to their photoshoot on Sunday afternoon in UP Diliman. He is going to be with other Multiply guys as well. I asked him if I could bring my cousin and he agreed. Hmm, start of modelling career eh? Check his site here. :-) He told me to prepare a black dress and candy-colored outfits. Excited much? :-D

My heart is jumping

2008-04-21T22:44:00.000-07:00

I love you.
I love you.
Happy birthday! :->

Post party last night was a blast. Thanks to all my friends, and to his friends, and to his parents. :-) We'll get married soon. Hehehehehe. :-D

That guy

2008-04-21T04:57:00.000-07:00

He is the only one who makes me feel what I have always wanted to feel. He gives me bonafide loving. He makes me feel more than what I expected to feel. And because of that, I am scared. I am scared that I may not return the feelings he has for me. I am scared I might get overboard and he might dislikes me afterwards. I am scared of not returning the feelings, and getting overboard. He gives me bonafide loving.

We talk about us. We talk about things between us. We talk about those things that makes him hate me, and makes me hate him. We talk about those things that we really don't talk about. It hurts knowing that there are things we are supposed to talk about when everything seems to be perfect.

I don't know why we all hang on to something we know we are better off letting go. It is like we are scared to lose what we don't even really have. Some of us say we would rather have that something than absolutely nothing. But the truth is to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all.

He is the only one who makes me feel what I have always wanted to feel, and he gives me bonafide loving.

Playlist 101

2008-04-20T20:07:00.000-07:00

Im digging alternative-slash-indie songs lately. My ears are listening to Brand New's Soco Amaretto Lime. It talks about being young and being in love and the peer pressure and going to stay young forever. I wanna leave all the shits I've done.. and for some time, I wanna get out of here. I wanna fucking get out of here. If not physical, maybe inside my mind.

"Who are you to wave a finger? You must have been out of your mind."-The Pot; Tool

Appreciation

2008-04-20T19:00:00.000-07:00

I see this chair. It has been inside our house for a couple of years now but I haven't really sit upon it. I walk towards this chair and sit. I feel the warmth that it gives to my ass. It feels good, and I lie. I fall asleep and then I wake up. It feels good to know there is something that would give you much more than what you need and want. When you appreciate things, life gets more meaningful. And when life gets more meaningful, it becomes shorter. And when life gets shorter, ask yourself, what is fast when life is short? :-)

I am moving on.

Any help?

2008-04-18T21:17:00.000-07:00

I can't sleep not because I'm thinking of winning P249M.. I can't sleep because I don't know how to get taller.
I swear this random pageant I've seen last night made me feel so insecure. Hahahaha!

Its for the lulz, baby!

2008-04-17T22:24:00.000-07:00

GOOD HUMOR FOR A GOOD RANDOM STRANGER!

"WHAT THE FUCK DOES STFU MEAN? YOU GUYS NEED TO SHUT THE FUCK UP WITH YOUR STFU. WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN?"-Eva having an intelligent conversation with /b/
GM
Raphael Pulgar: you go to /b/?!
Krisha fasdfhasdhfjsdf: lol
Raphael Pulgar: you do?!
Raphael Pulgar: or do you just lurk
Raphael Pulgar: like a newfag
Krisha fasdfhasdhfjsdf: why bother
Raphael Pulgar: haha wala lang. i didnt think anyone else would be smart enough to understand /b/
Raphael Pulgar: high five, /b/tard
Krisha fasdfhasdhfjsdf: /b/ is sorta like a blind drunk downs syndrom child wielding a chainsaw, whereas ed is like a omglazer guided lulbomb
Raphael Pulgar: lolwut
Raphael Pulgar: /b/ > ed
Raphael Pulgar: eds just there to educate newfags haha
Raphael Pulgar: but still for the lulz.
Raphael Pulgar: i still wish i had an efg mask though
Raphael Pulgar: haha
Raphael Pulgar: lol you have to get to know our vocallist. his the biggest btard i know
Krisha fasdfhasdhfjsdf: hahahahah
Raphael Pulgar: my other friend goes to b to collect cp
Raphael Pulgar: during pedobear approved zero hour nights haha

Random

2008-04-17T21:17:00.000-07:00

I had a fun lunch with my sister. :-)

She handed a cup of rice, and three pieces of hotdogs. I got some rice and a piece of hotdog. She's on diet for some weeks now so I told her to eat just enough because if she doesn't, she'll get fatter. She told me to fuck off. Hmkay! And then I got water, and she drank this Fit and Right commercialized bottled juice and I told her to have water instead because that juice contains 100 calories and water doesn't have (does it?). And she told me to fuck off.. again. Yey!

Encyclopedia Dramatica is my new thessaurus. :-D I came to find that the London 2012 Olympics Logo looks like two people having butt sex, or anal orgasms. Hee. :-)) The new logo was supposed to be urban, active, and extreme, however it turned out to be the campain to British taxpayers was apparently a whopping £400,000 (about $ 790,000 or P 33.2 M); yes, it cost that much for someone to make 2 abstract lines with 2 highlighters.

The public's reaction wsa nothing short of outrage, and there were mentions of it looking like a "broken swastika". It's amazing how the campaign was so bad that it has brought back nightmares of World War 2 and the holocaust.

Funny how I get to hear my sister watching Ken Lee again in my uncle's room. Maybe she's a fan (?) Because I don't hear her laughing.

First

2008-04-17T20:43:00.000-07:00

I feel like writing again.

Online communities bores me. I talk to random people and they find me weird. I don't know. I don't care anyway.

I ate some seafood noodles last night while talking to a new friend named Leonard. I got red all over. I think it's because of the seafoods because I get allergies when I eat those. And a random guy IMed me and he thinks I'm weird because I get allergies when eating seafoods. I find him weird because he talks to me. I don't know him. What a stranger.

Beach with friends next Friday! I'm excited, really. I get to see them again.. and get fucked up.

P.S.

Why are there no smileys in Blogger.com? You know.. I get my emotions with those little cartooned smileys. Geez.